Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Myeloma transplant - Mind games

During the time of my illness and especially during my autologous stem cell transplant for myeloma I was intrigued by how much mind games came into play.
It was a battle at times to stay focussed on where I was, what was happening and not to let the mind wander into negativity when the setbacks came.
Being an optimist, preparing positive thoughts and sayings I thought my headspace would not be a problem.
The battle was in the evenings or when alone. Concentration was down so the mind wandered. What is that pain, am I progressing, what if this does not work, shouldn’t my white counts be rising now?
Big deal then, trivial now.

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